Dark Days

Do you ever just have dark days.

I do.

I battle the overwhelming feeling of grief.

I try so hard to move forward, but still have days where grief consumes me.

I think I cope fairly well, particularly when I  see how other widows deal with grief.

I try to relfect on all that was good in my life.

The fact that I have a new grandson on the way makes me smile more than anything I have felt in the last 2+ years.

I only wish that Mark could be here to experience the joy that this will bring.

Its a very hard emotion to balance.

Reflection on what was and what will be.

I thank God for the blessings, but still struggle with the fact that my husband is gone.

I want to be positive and focus on the future.

I think I have found someone one that will make me feel safe, secure and loved.

But it will never be the way it was.

So today, I feel the weight of the dark days.

Tomorrow will be different.

I never ever want to forget the ture love I had with Mark.

It was an incredible love that will be with me forever.

It is something that I wish all can experience.

I was blessed.

be well