Do you ever just have dark days.
I do.
I battle the overwhelming feeling of grief.
I try so hard to move forward, but still have days where grief consumes me.
I think I cope fairly well, particularly when I see how other widows deal with grief.
I try to relfect on all that was good in my life.
The fact that I have a new grandson on the way makes me smile more than anything I have felt in the last 2+ years.
I only wish that Mark could be here to experience the joy that this will bring.
Its a very hard emotion to balance.
Reflection on what was and what will be.
I thank God for the blessings, but still struggle with the fact that my husband is gone.
I want to be positive and focus on the future.
I think I have found someone one that will make me feel safe, secure and loved.
But it will never be the way it was.
So today, I feel the weight of the dark days.
Tomorrow will be different.
I never ever want to forget the ture love I had with Mark.
It was an incredible love that will be with me forever.
It is something that I wish all can experience.
I was blessed.
be well
